Recipes. Place cards. Exhale. Book edits. Emails. Inhale. Dry cleaning. Flowers. Exhale. Sleep. No time. This is what my head sounded like in yoga.
I, like many of you, raced to yoga to alleviate stress, only to spend the "mental quiet" making lists of everything I have to do. I entered a book I spent three years working on, into a contest and it is due this week. I also have three articles to write and in the midst of my crazy over achiever mode I decided to hold my annual girls brunch this Sunday. I always invite my close girlfriends over for a buffett style breakfast and I cook most of the food. I try to make it healthy and I spend days planning and cooking.
It hit me last week that for the first time in 5 years of having this get together, that I had no menu, and I wasn't even sure who was coming. Usually I am prepared weeks in advance. But this is what my life has been like; I am running on autopilot.
We are halfway through 2012 and my goal was to be present in everything I do. I never want things like a fun get together to feel like part of my "to do" list and I certaintly don't want my creative expression (my articles) to feel jumbled because I am racing through life.
After several late nights worrying and stressing, I forced myself to sit in silence for 15 minutes. Once I quieted my mind I was able to feel a sense of peace. Instead of stressing over all of the minutia I decided to look at the abundance I had created,and I made sure to express gratitude for each and every item. Then I decided to stop, take a breath and ask myself a few important questions. When have I ever not completed something on time? Never. How many times have I raced through something without even being present in the process? Usually. The good news is this time I realized it before the experience was over.
I vowed to change my approach to this week by embracing the process, recognizing the abundance, and taking one day at a time. What are you racing through just to "get it done?" When was the last time you were fully present? Are you ever aware that you are enjoying yourself, while the moment is still happening?
Take time today to breathe it all in and absorb each and every second. Life is too short to be made up of "to do" lists.
Have a wonderful week!